*NISSY*

I was the only unlucky person to not have met you. I would hear all these stories of how wonderful you were..from my mom and my sibilings. I have seen pictures. You look just like my mom ..well i guess she looks like you now. It does make me sad that i missed out on something great..because you..well God decided to take you home just a few months shy of my birth. I hope to meet you someday. I know i will <3

umm well the friends i talk to online are like my bestfriends but recently me and person started talking so i guess i will write about that.

Even though we had a good friendship freshman year all hell broke loose sophomore year. But i love the way you handled all the situations….truely classy. If i was in your position i would have reacted very differently….or maby not. Im not big on confrontation either..sometimes…okay so i can be a little unpredictable but anywayz…as i was saying the internet part comes in now. Even though it was awkward at first to even really talk to you, things have gotten better since then :)

 dear ex,

I dont know why we are like this but i wished it wasnt. Why does the weirdest stuff happen to us? i dont know… its like when i feel like i have made everything okay…one little thing sets everything off…again. i hope things get better or else..OH WELL.

sincerely,

 N

stranger?? hmmm okaay i talked to a stanger the other day…i didnt meet them on the street or anything. He was at this…thing..i was at and i just talked to him. Hes kinda cool maby a little bit of a show off. I forgot to ask which grade he was in but he looked fairly young…maby a sophomore or a junior.

wait so is this like the dreams in my head..like when im asleep orr like my DREAMS in life or something….

Well i guess ill talk about my dreams or goals in life….because i really dont want to talk about the ones that occur when im asleep. They get a little creepy.

Anyways..my goals in life…i want to be sucessful in whatever I end doing. Hopefully in the medical field..yes that is my choice and not something that was forced onto me. Even though in the back of my mind i would loove to be a music major…maby i would be lucky enough to minor in it.

i wasnt here for like 5 days…i think ill just go and do a few :)

okaay i have 3 siblings and i guess ill start with the oldest :) ORIGINALS ONLY no offense…

hmm…lets see i dont even know where to start…this guy is more like a dad than a brother. Always on the lookout for me, which can be extreeeemely annoying…buts its sweet to know that someone is keeping an eye on you. He can be really childish which is also annoying in a public setting…its like “dude we are in public..can you please act decent???”. Hes also very sensitive and even though we joke around A LOT…i have to be careful sometimes..can never take him for granted. When i want something from my parents, i go to him first. Evcen though he might disagree at first he will eventually give in to his little sister. I feel so blessed to have him as an older brother who is so protective but can use his brain even when i do something stupid and think hes gonna kill me. <3

Sheesh…this one is the TYPICAL brother. we might not be as cool as the one mentioned above, but we have our momments where we are the only ones laughing and everyone else sits there like outsiders. I guess there were a couple of times where there were a “big brother little sister” momment but, its  mostly overrated. Im not really close to him i guess…he doesnt take me out to eat or shopping but…thats just how he is..hes not that type of a person and i guess at the end of the day i still love him.   

My one and only sister…i wish i had her for a longer time…NO shes not dead.. she was just taken away from me…and im still trying to make right with that guy. Even though she lives a seperate life now, she still finds the time to pry herself into mine. I think she feels the need to try and be my mother..and i keep telling her…one is enough..and more. Shes in a way like my oldest brother…the only difference…he scares me more :) But unlike my brothers i can sit and talk to my sister about anything and everything…well we are girls <3

i havent been keeping up with this thingyy but im gonnaaa….starting….tomorrow :)

hmm where do i start? i guess with mamaa 

wow…shes really patient with me. I remember when i was  She is such a giving person. always living for someone else and never for herself. she gives soo much of herself to other people its crazy…I want to have dedication like her… I have never met someone with  so much knowledge of the bible like her. Its quite remarkable…but what i like more is her wit and will power, strongly rooted in what she belives in, she is willing to fight for it WITH ANYONE and 99.9% of the time she ends up having the upper hand. I want to become a strong woman of the lord just like my mommaay.  She IS  my role model i love you mommy <3

daddy…i love him soo much…hes such a funny character…sometimes funny sometimes REALLY ANNOYING…but i guess that “annoying” is just how he is you know…he is a loving caring daddy, who can sometimes just say things without realizing what it is that he is saying.but, i He isnt the type of person that ever does anything to hurt someone intentionally. i know i dont show it a lot daddy but i love you alot! <3

ughhh….oh mann this is gonna be awkwardd..haah

hope you never see this! :)

Now that i think about it..i think i only truely crushed on one person. This might have been because we talked SOO freakin much. starting from..”heyy he’s not that bad of a guy…into there is something so special.” A lot of my friends didnt see it. Some mentioned it, some kept it to themselves, but i knew thats what they thought.  Anywayz we have had our ups and downs, but we’re good friends…

I cannot end this post without giving a little nod to someone else…

I think you are really sweet smart GOOD LOOKING guy. you are a good leader, funny and did i mention sweet? everytime i think about you i cant help but smile a little bit  and thanks for putting up with my BS lol now thinking back i was CRAZY ahhaha  Good luck at UT.  one day you will make some girl very happy….but the one regret i have is that we never got to be good friends, i never got a chance to actually TALK to you…i bet you would have liked me :)