NISSY

Day 18 - The person you wish you could be

Mon, 09 May 2011 19:14:41 -0400

I have not been keeping up with this but this is an attempt to try….again.

There is only one person that I wish I could be and thats my cousin. I guess I never realized how much I looked up to her until I was older. She is a born leader who takes matters into her own hands and gets things done… the right way. She is an artist and even though her room looks like the work of someone with OCD, i still think its pretty amazing. She is a great cook. She can cook something without even knowing what the heck she is doing and it will still turn out to be amazing. Sweet, kind, and beautiful she will be the a pharmacist in four years. <3

wow

Sat, 07 May 2011 18:38:17 -0400

its been a while…

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Thu, 05 Aug 2010 13:06:26 -0400

I had to think about this for a min. but i got it :)

Okaay…so i wasnt around for long. You were the only person i could genuinely call my friend back then, even though we had our momments. It was nice seeing you a couple of years ago you looked so different. I guess i changed too huh? I really wonder how close we could have gotten if i hadnt left. <3

Day 16 Someone that’s not in your state/country

Tue, 03 Aug 2010 23:12:47 -0400

reeBOOO!

:) sorry i couldnt make it this year. I did want to see you, but i didnt plan or anything. That could be one reason i didnt make it. Thanks to you i heard all about what happened at this years conference. Come back to texas sometime cause i do miss you.

day 15 person that you miss the most

Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:35:42 -0400

to my dearest, im so glad that i got to meet you….i want you to know that you MADE my summer….that one summer when all cam crashing down. You didnt even know that you were making me feel better. You made me LAUGH which is a big deal… I had the best time of my life and im gonna hold you up to the promise that youre gonna come here one day with lots of love

Day 14 Someone you’ve drifted away from

Sun, 01 Aug 2010 20:41:37 -0400

We met in 6th grade..i thought you were overly nice and really smart. Such a sweet girl. Then you moved away and it was sad. REALLY sad. When you came back, it just wasnt the same. I guess i could blame it on how we both had changed and didnt really get to talk. I do miss the old days steph <3

Day 13 someone you wish would forgive you

Sat, 31 Jul 2010 22:58:42 -0400

heyy…you know if we just got one opportunity to sit down and talk for maby 10 mins things would be better between us. Im really sorry for being…i guess childish back then and the crap that for some reason continues even to this day. I dont mean it and i heard youre a nice guy…well heard and seen. Thanks for being a sweety. I dont think i will ever get a chance to really talk to you and get to know you but i hope that one day this awkwardness will go away.

Day 12 A person that cause you pain

Sat, 31 Jul 2010 22:51:47 -0400

I dont know, even to this day, if you did that on purpose or not. What were you thinking? Maby i just refuse to believe that you did it on purpose. You always seem to have an answer..but so does the other bestfriend. You could have ended it there but you came back to be “buddies” again. Why? it shouldnt really matter since we dont talk anymore…or maby that will change once summer ends. The past feels like a dream..the good and the bad. I read somewhere that you dont stop loving someone or you never loved them in the first place…what will it be?

Day 11 A deceased person you wish you could talk to

Sat, 31 Jul 2010 22:32:30 -0400

well i already talked about grandma in one of my other posts soooo who shall it be?

ahh i guess you…since i been thinkin about you lately..

okaay soo you know the only reason i talked to you was because i thought you were soo cute! I also thought you were asian. :D Im not exactly sure how we ended up talkin but before you know it we were talkin and joking around like old buddies. I still remember that one day when you randomly picked me up and carried me to class..It was soo random. you didnt even know how i would react to that cause we werent THAT cool. i miss you..and youre smile and how you would shake youre hair away from your eye.. <3

Day 10 Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like

Sat, 31 Jul 2010 21:27:00 -0400

I miss you soo much! remember when we used to talk ALL DAY? i do..those were the days. Now we are both grown and i havent changed very much from then, but i hear you have. Even though we talk sometimes I wish it could be what it once was. It was so much fun,but something i have realized is that even if you try to recreate the past..it wont be the same EVER. How much ever you try…Your memory will always be the better version. I do hope that we will start talkin again <33

TO THE PEOPLE THAT ACTUALLY SPEND THEIR TIME AND READ MY CRAP. I KNOW MY WRITING DOESNT ALWAYS MAKE SENSE… :)

Day 9 someone you wish you could meet

Sat, 31 Jul 2010 21:20:42 -0400

I was the only unlucky person to not have met you. I would hear all these stories of how wonderful you were..from my mom and my sibilings. I have seen pictures. You look just like my mom ..well i guess she looks like you now. It does make me sad that i missed out on something great..because you..well God decided to take you home just a few months shy of my birth. I hope to meet you someday. I know i will <3

Day 8 favorite internet friend

Fri, 30 Jul 2010 23:54:30 -0400

umm well the friends i talk to online are like my bestfriends but recently me and person started talking so i guess i will write about that.

Even though we had a good friendship freshman year all hell broke loose sophomore year. But i love the way you handled all the situations….truely classy. If i was in your position i would have reacted very differently….or maby not. Im not big on confrontation either..sometimes…okay so i can be a little unpredictable but anywayz…as i was saying the internet part comes in now. Even though it was awkward at first to even really talk to you, things have gotten better since then :)

day 7 Ex- whatever

Fri, 30 Jul 2010 23:47:00 -0400

dear ex,

I dont know why we are like this but i wished it wasnt. Why does the weirdest stuff happen to us? i dont know… its like when i feel like i have made everything okay…one little thing sets everything off…again. i hope things get better or else..OH WELL.

sincerely,

day 6 stranger

Fri, 30 Jul 2010 13:32:57 -0400

stranger?? hmmm okaay i talked to a stanger the other day…i didnt meet them on the street or anything. He was at this…thing..i was at and i just talked to him. Hes kinda cool maby a little bit of a show off. I forgot to ask which grade he was in but he looked fairly young…maby a sophomore or a junior.

Day 5 dreams

Fri, 30 Jul 2010 13:22:29 -0400

wait so is this like the dreams in my head..like when im asleep orr like my DREAMS in life or something….

Well i guess ill talk about my dreams or goals in life….because i really dont want to talk about the ones that occur when im asleep. They get a little creepy.

Anyways..my goals in life…i want to be sucessful in whatever I end doing. Hopefully in the medical field..yes that is my choice and not something that was forced onto me. Even though in the back of my mind i would loove to be a music major…maby i would be lucky enough to minor in it.

since

Fri, 30 Jul 2010 12:59:56 -0400

i wasnt here for like 5 days…i think ill just go and do a few :)

Day 4 siblings

Fri, 30 Jul 2010 12:37:00 -0400

okaay i have 3 siblings and i guess ill start with the oldest :) ORIGINALS ONLY no offense…

hmm…lets see i dont even know where to start…this guy is more like a dad than a brother. Always on the lookout for me, which can be extreeeemely annoying…buts its sweet to know that someone is keeping an eye on you. He can be really childish which is also annoying in a public setting…its like “dude we are in public..can you please act decent???”. Hes also very sensitive and even though we joke around A LOT…i have to be careful sometimes..can never take him for granted. When i want something from my parents, i go to him first. Evcen though he might disagree at first he will eventually give in to his little sister. I feel so blessed to have him as an older brother who is so protective but can use his brain even when i do something stupid and think hes gonna kill me. <3

Sheesh…this one is the TYPICAL brother. we might not be as cool as the one mentioned above, but we have our momments where we are the only ones laughing and everyone else sits there like outsiders. I guess there were a couple of times where there were a “big brother little sister” momment but, its mostly overrated. Im not really close to him i guess…he doesnt take me out to eat or shopping but…thats just how he is..hes not that type of a person and i guess at the end of the day i still love him.

My one and only sister…i wish i had her for a longer time…NO shes not dead.. she was just taken away from me…and im still trying to make right with that guy. Even though she lives a seperate life now, she still finds the time to pry herself into mine. I think she feels the need to try and be my mother..and i keep telling her…one is enough..and more. Shes in a way like my oldest brother…the only difference…he scares me more :) But unlike my brothers i can sit and talk to my sister about anything and everything…well we are girls <3

ok soooo

Thu, 29 Jul 2010 22:30:07 -0400

i havent been keeping up with this thingyy but im gonnaaa….starting….tomorrow :)

day 3 parents

Sat, 17 Jul 2010 15:00:38 -0400

hmm where do i start? i guess with mamaa

wow…shes really patient with me. I remember when i was She is such a giving person. always living for someone else and never for herself. she gives soo much of herself to other people its crazy…I want to have dedication like her… I have never met someone with so much knowledge of the bible like her. Its quite remarkable…but what i like more is her wit and will power, strongly rooted in what she belives in, she is willing to fight for it WITH ANYONE and 99.9% of the time she ends up having the upper hand. I want to become a strong woman of the lord just like my mommaay. She IS my role model i love you mommy <3

daddy…i love him soo much…hes such a funny character…sometimes funny sometimes REALLY ANNOYING…but i guess that “annoying” is just how he is you know…he is a loving caring daddy, who can sometimes just say things without realizing what it is that he is saying.but, i He isnt the type of person that ever does anything to hurt someone intentionally. i know i dont show it a lot daddy but i love you alot! <3

day 2 crush

Fri, 16 Jul 2010 01:22:00 -0400

ughhh….oh mann this is gonna be awkwardd..haah

hope you never see this! :)

Now that i think about it..i think i only truely crushed on one person. This might have been because we talked SOO freakin much. starting from..”heyy he’s not that bad of a guy…into there is something so special.” A lot of my friends didnt see it. Some mentioned it, some kept it to themselves, but i knew thats what they thought. Anywayz we have had our ups and downs, but we’re good friends…

I cannot end this post without giving a little nod to someone else…

I think you are really sweet smart GOOD LOOKING guy. you are a good leader, funny and did i mention sweet? everytime i think about you i cant help but smile a little bit and thanks for putting up with my BS lol now thinking back i was CRAZY ahhaha Good luck at UT. one day you will make some girl very happy….but the one regret i have is that we never got to be good friends, i never got a chance to actually TALK to you…i bet you would have liked me :)

*NISSY*